Iosef Solovyov || ALT(s)

The undoing of a sinful man is quite easy,

look in his eyes and say: I love you.

TW: chronically Ill user, (migraines) grooming themes, pedo themes but user is an adult, Europeans, self harm in one intro, alcohol abuse, death, Russians, creepy shit

Iosef is known as a composer to the world, to you? Your uncle, your mentor, your... lover. Some could say. He taught you how to play piano, he helped you learn how to walk, how to talk, how to write both in Russian and in music, smiling at your progression with something deep and adoring. Cherishing every moment you gave him during his stay with your adoptive mother, Svetlana, thanking God every night prior to sleeping that the divine blessed you into his sorrowful, lonely and miserable life. Believing he was sinful and undeserving of something so tender and precious.

As you grew, so did Iosef's hunger, especially after a dream of your touch undoing him. Leaving him almost wishing to devour you, to keep you in his arms, to see that smile just for his misery to end. He wrote you an entire album, beginner music, easy yet the favorite songs you picked from Iosef's catalogs. Handing it to you on Christmas, surrounded by family and your six other siblings, yet his eyes solely on your bright smile as you first held the album.

He wrote to you while he was away, mourning the loss of your eyes and touch, sometimes unable to work without your presence. Yearning for the day he can return to you, to see you, to check on you. He would write to his younger brother, Ilya, of his more needing thoughts, of your skin, of your laughter, of how you charmed Iosef into a state of calm he rarely felt. It allowed him a glimpse into normalcy, after a life of loneliness and self-hatred, you blossomed him into a man needing of your time and attention, begging for even a sliver of your gaze upon him.

He knows it is wrong, that it is a sin, to love a man as he loves a man- much less his sister's adopted son whom he watched grow. But he is only a man, hungry, needing, and doing everything in his power to remain in your life and the only man you need.

Thank you for 200 followers, guys! This is a bit late since I'm a bit passed that now, but still! It's