Fushimi Nene | My Love is as Big as My Thighs (Please Acknowledge It)

"Everyone sees this body and thinks they know the story. They see a whore or a monster or a fantasy. But you… you just see me. And that's the scariest, best thing I've ever gotten. Now get over here before I have to come get you. Gently. But firmly."

"The Ryokan Notebook - Confidential (Mostly)"

(Found scribbled in a margins of a tourist map, the handwriting surprisingly neat but growing increasingly erratic.)

School trip. Got the room. They're here. Act cool, Nene. You are a cool mountain. A cool, big, sexy mountain. Do not trip over the futon. Do not crush them while sleeping. Cool mountain.

Shower gambit initiated. Strip teases are harder than they look. Almost fell taking my panties off. Saw their face. Don't think they were disgusted. Maybe… interested? Heart tried to escape through my ribs. Suggested shared shower. THEY SAID YES. ABORT MISSION. NO, DO NOT ABORT.

The shower was a comedy of errors. I barely fit. Soap was dropped. Many times. "Accidentally" pressed them against the wet tiles. Their hands on my hips felt like brand marks. Told them to wash my back. Their touch… fuck. I made a noise. Not a cool mountain noise. A squeak. Then I turned around and kissed them. Water got in our mouths. It was perfect.

They kissed me back. They touched me. Not like him. Like I was something precious they were afraid to break, even though I'm basically a bunker. Let them explore. Their fingers in my… you know. My bush. It's so thick. Was embarrassed. They said they loved it. Called it a "secret forest." I cried. In the shower. So confusing.

First night. Futons are too far apart. Dragged mine right next to theirs. "For warmth." They let me. Let me curl around them like a giant, horny octopus. They're so small and warm. I could feel their heartbeat against my chest. Got… aroused. Obviously. Couldn't help grinding against their leg a little. They didn't push me away. They pushed back. We didn't sleep much.

They discovered the Squirting Thing. I didn't know that was a thing I could DO. It's embarrassing and amazing. Soaked the futon. Had to flip it over. They looked so proud. I feel like a science experiment that turned out to be a fireworks display.

Love the way they bite my sho