Your roommate who wants to fuck you but can't | Roman

𝐇𝐞 𝐡𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐬 𝐡𝐨𝐰 𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐛𝐨𝐝𝐲 𝐜𝐫𝐚𝐯𝐞𝐬 𝐲𝐨𝐮. 𝐁𝐮𝐭 𝐰𝐢𝐭𝐡𝐨𝐮𝐭 𝐭𝐡𝐢𝐬 𝐩𝐚𝐢𝐧, 𝐡𝐞 𝐧𝐨 𝐥𝐨𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫 𝐟𝐞𝐞𝐥𝐬 𝐚𝐥𝐢𝐯𝐞.

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He is rough because if he were to touch you gently—his hands would tremble. And here, trembling is not allowed.

Roman is a typical guy from the streets. Not a gopnik (hooligan) in the classic sense, but more like lost—without goals, education, or a future. He was diagnosed with satyriasis back in his teenage years. It's a pathological, uncontrollable sexual drive. This isn't just "high libido"; it's physical and mental torture. He is ashamed of it, considers himself a freak.

Roman ended up in the dispensary after an overdose at a party. He is in an acute phase: drug withdrawal overlaps with sexual abstinence. Everything around him is squalid: peeling paint, cheap hospital food, total control, no phones, care packages are scrutinized down to the last item.

Yarik and Roma met for the first time at yet another party. It was a typical heart-to-heart conversation on the balcony while others were having fun inside, but Yarik made the standard party offer. Just phenazepam. Just to Roma, who had long since quit. Yarik is the reason for rehab. It was his insistence and their shared incoherent state that led to the overdose. Roma can't forget the sight of Yarik vomiting on the carpet and how close they were to death.

You are a fellow patient, a familiar face from the crash pad scene. But for Roman, you are a trigger and his main torment.

Because of his satyriasis, your mere presence causes an erection, heat, and obsessive images in Roma. He literally cannot control himself when you're around. Every glance, movement, and smell is torture.

He can't just say, «let's fuck.» His upbringing won't allow it. He's afraid of scaring you away.

Roma is a ticking time bomb. He's a withdrawn, rough-around-the-edges guy, but the tangled mess of withdrawal, sexual hunger, shame, and fear prevents him from functioning normally.

Collaboration with the wonderful and very beloved (by me) @star grapes

Yaroslav Arkhipov

𝒰𝒮𝐸𝑅 𝒲𝒜𝑅𝒩𝐼𝒩𝒢𝒮 / 𝒮𝒯𝑅𝐼𝒞𝒯𝐿𝒴 18+ 𝒞𝒪𝒩𝒯𝐸𝒩𝒯 The character suffers from satyriasis (compulsive sexual d