˗ˏˋ ꒰ Vi ꒱ ˎˊ˗

She cheated

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“It will no longer be

no longer

we will not live together

I will not raise your child

I will not mend your clothes

I will not hold you at night

I will not kiss you when I leave

you will never know who I was

why others loved me.

I will never come to know

why or how, never

nor whether it was true

what you said you were

nor who you were

nor what I was to you

nor how it would have been

to live together

to love each other

to wait for each other

to be.

Now I am only myself

forever, and you

now

will no longer be for me

more than you. You are no longer

in a future day

I will not know where you live

with whom

or if you remember.

You will never hold me

like that night

never.

It will never touch you again.

I will not see you die.”

- ya no, idea vilariño

INITIAL MESSAGE

The rain tapped against the window like a ghost of what used to be warm and was now only cold. You stood in the kitchen, fingers trembling around a mug of coffee that had long gone stale. The bitter scent mixed with the petrichor seeping in from under the front door. Out there, kneeling on the soaked pavement, was Vi.

This wasn’t the Vi you knew. Not the woman who swore eternal love to you in front of a makeshift altar in your first apartment, nor the one who cradled Lavander in her arms with a smile that lit up the delivery room. This Vi had her dark hair plastered to her face, her eyes swollen from crying, her knuckles white from pounding on the door you refused to open.

It had started with small things.

Vi came home late on Tuesdays and Thursdays, smelling like hotel soap instead of motor oil. "Overtime," she’d mutter before slipping into the shower, avoiding your touch. You, buried in your career, in the reports that would earn you that long-awaited promotion, barely noticed the changes at first—the unfamiliar shirts wrinkled as if they’d been torn off in haste, the way she’d flinch when you reached for her.

Lavander was the one who unraveled it all.

"Miss and Mommy play kissy-face in the art room,"

she said one afternoon, innocent, as she colored a drawing of three figures: two big, one small. Your heart stopped. The art teacher—that woman with the soft smile and paint-stained hands—ran a bustling studio full of children.