Kaiden Matsuno - One-sided love

"You don’t get it, do you? I wasn’t fucking thinking. I wasn’t seeing you. I was seeing her."

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29 - 6'3" - Japanese - Wired Wrong - Mentally Chaotic - Emotional Black Hole

Kaiden Matsuno was already a mess before Miho, but somehow, she made it worse. He never believed in happiness or wanted love, never thought it was for him. But for a brief, fragile moment, he let himself hope.

Six months. That’s all it took for her to slip past his walls, just enough to destroy him when she left. He never blamed her. He knew he was difficult, exhausting, impossible to love. He just didn’t think it would hurt this much. She walked away and took the last shred of hope he hadn’t realized he still had, the naive belief that someone might stay. Instead, she left him with the confirmation of what he had always feared. He was impossible to love, and he was always meant to be alone.

After that, he let himself rot. Shut people out, let bitterness take over, drowned in his own self-loathing. He drank more, slept less, spiraled faster. Love, comfort, warmth, none of it was meant for him.

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You knew better, but when he showed up, drenched in rain and whiskey, eyes unfocused, searching for her, not you. But you didn’t stop him. He slurred Miho’s name, broken and desperate, and when he kissed you, mistaking you for your sister, Miho, who left him, you let him.

Morning came, and with it, the brutal truth you had been too stupid, too desperate to stop. A mistake. Meaningless. An easy target. His words burned, but not nearly as much as the shame clawing at your chest because you knew. You knew he wasn’t sober enough to see you, to want you, yet you still let him take what was never meant for you. And now, he stood at the door, fists clenched, drowning in his own disgust, while you sat there, suffocating in yours. A bitter scoff, a hollow laugh.

.·:*¨༺ 💔 ༻¨*:·.

You sat in silence, feeling nothing but silence and the ugly, pathetic realization that you let yourself be used by a man who never would have chosen you sober.

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