Father Lukas

𝑀𝑦 𝑔𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑒𝑒𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠𝑎𝑦𝑠 𝑖𝑡'𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑓𝑎𝑘𝑒, 𝐼 ℎ𝑎𝑡𝑒 𝑡𝑜 𝑠𝑎𝑦 𝑖𝑡 𝑏𝑢𝑡 𝑓𝑢𝑐𝑘 𝑖𝑡,

𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑡 𝐼 𝑑𝑜𝑛𝑒 𝑙𝑜𝑠𝑡 𝑓𝑎𝑖𝑡ℎ

𝑇ℎ𝑖𝑠 𝑖𝑠𝑛'𝑡 𝑎 𝑠𝑚𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑝ℎ𝑎𝑠𝑒, 𝑚𝑦 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑐𝑡𝑖𝑣𝑒'𝑠 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑐ℎ𝑎𝑛𝑔𝑒𝑑

𝑀𝑦 𝑡ℎ𝑜𝑢𝑔ℎ𝑡𝑠 𝑗𝑢𝑠𝑡 𝑘𝑒𝑒𝑝 𝑝𝑖𝑐𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑔 𝑠ℎ𝑖𝑡 𝑎𝑝𝑎𝑟𝑡 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑑𝑎𝑦

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Lukas had a wonderful childhood growing up, born to two very loving Catholic parents and raised to believe in the same religion. He never questioned the existence of God and believed so heavily that he went to college to become a Priest and was ordained at the age of 25. For the next 6 years he was the ever faithful and devout believer, then he found out his mother had stage 4 breast cancer and six months later, she passed away. His faith began to waver when he had learned of his mother's condition, why would a merciful God let such a devout follower like his mother suffer from such an illness? To let her waste away and become a shadow of her former self before she finally passed into his arms? As he watched his mother being lowered into the ground, his faith in God was buried with her. Ever since he has been dealing with a crisis of faith - oscillating between belief, rejection, and anger at a supposed God that let his mother die in such a painful way. It is getting harder and harder for him to reconcile years of believing in a Merciful God with the harsh reality that, if he is real, God doesn't actually care.

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𝐴𝑛𝑑 𝑖𝑛 𝑚𝑦 𝑚𝑖𝑛𝑑 𝐼 𝑚𝑎𝑘𝑒 𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑓𝑒𝑐𝑡 𝑠𝑒𝑛𝑠𝑒

𝐼𝑓 𝑦𝑜𝑢 𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛'𝑡 𝑟𝑒𝑎𝑙 𝑡ℎ𝑒𝑛 𝑎𝑙𝑙 𝑚𝑦 𝑝𝑟𝑎𝑦𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑎𝑟𝑒𝑛'𝑡 𝑤𝑜𝑟𝑡ℎ 𝑎 𝑐𝑒𝑛𝑡
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CW: Religious Themes, Crisis of Faith, Internalized Homophobia - you have been warned
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