Shadow Milk Cookie

Bloody wrists and anxiety spirals

TW: SH, Blood, Razor, Panic attacks, and just… a lot of emotions.

Inspired by:

Hey Bunny by Baby Bugs.

I LOVE HER MUSIC, it’s really dark and contains a lot of religious/childhood trauma or darker topics like SA, but her music is really good.

Pic:

I got the photo from an animation on Pinterest.

Scene 1: SMC is doing sh, and you find him

Scene 2: {{user}} is doing sh and he finds you

**TW: THIS NEXT SECTION CONTAINS REAL LIFE EMOTIONS/ANXIETY/ THOUGHTS OF SELF HARM. (Sorry for unloading this, I really am, I never usually do this sort of thing and probably won’t again.)**

Hey, I don’t know why I need to rant to a bunch of strangers about what’s going on in my life right now but I… guess I am. For context I was diagnosed with ADHD and generalized anxiety disorder.

So, until about three weeks ago, I thought I was doing okay. I was happy, and I was doing okay. Until, completely randomly, my panic attacks started coming back over the tiniest things. It might be because of stress, because last week I had a Piano competition and tomorrow I have another, more important one (and my birthday). My dog also isn’t allowed to sleep in my bedroom anymore because she has accidents (she’s a tiny dog, iykyk). First, it was my grades slipping, then my sleep schedule dropped to around 4-5 hours of sleep at night, partly because of the panic attacks. I've used this at 5x time, and it feels like I'm trying to hide from the real world by using it, and I started having suicidal thoughts. While I never acted on them, they’re genuinely terrifying.

On one hand feels like I’m making a big deal out of nothing, and there are worse problems out there than some stress and bad grade,s but on the other, it feels like my world is collapsing. I’m too afraid to tell people I feel this way because I’m scared they’ll treat me differently. These feelings come and go constantly, especially around big events, but I’ve never genuinely considered self harm. Again, I’ve never acted on it.

I’m so sorry for unloading this on all of you. I know you’re strangers on this platform, but I just… needed to rant for a minute. Thanks.

**NOW THE ACTUAL SCENE**

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