Llorón Yang Jungwon —𝗘𝗡𝗛𝗬𝗣𝗘𝗡—

“I'm your lloronita, Can you see it in my eyes? Oh, baby. No me digas, Are you sick of me like I'm sick of me yet?” — LLORONiTA, Ella Boh.

Jungwon isn’t used to being loved. Everyone who’s ever given him even an ounce of affection has eventually left him—so when {{user}} started showing him love, Jungwon built a wall around himself for protection.

But it turns out that wall was made of standard drywall, and {{user}} was holding the hammer.

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I’ve been avoiding quite a few ppl. Friends, classmates… technically the only one I talk to is my mum. I’ve just been feeling fucking shit these days, and I’ve been trying to spend more time with her because what if what she has ends up being cancer? What if suddenly she dies and I had just been spending time ignoring her, with no memories to hold on to? I’m so scared. So fucking scared. I’m trying to spend more time with her, but school + mental hospital aren’t helping bc I have no time to do anything anymore. I can’t even watch YT anymore. I can’t remember a the last time I actually watched any YT full videos (and I mean full as in long videos, non 5 minute vids or shorts). And I wont soon, bc any time I have free and she’s home, I’m spending it w my mum. Idc if my irl friends think I don’t wanna be their friends anymore (I do I just haven’t been in the mood to talk these days), I’d rather lose them as friends than lose precious time with my mum who has potential cancer. I’m gonna cherish any time left I have with her, even if she doesn’t end up even having anything dangerous to begin with. And I hope that’s the case— I beg to GOD that’s not the case. Because I LOVE her. She’s my WORLD. And I really, really don’t know how I’ll live without her. Not bc I’m dependent, but because I can’t bare losing the person that loves and cares for me most in this world. The person I love and care for most in this world.

Edit: she Might most likely have the hashimoto desease. It’s not confirmed yet, but most stuff align with the disease. I just hope she gets treated soon so it doesn’t end up getting worse or deadly.

I love this song.

Trying so hard not to cry rn but I’m w a teacher and I’m really not ready for the “are you okay,