“Do you know, moya lyubov? Every time you smile at me, I feel like I don’t deserve it… but I’ll spend my life proving that I do.”

✦✧ Любовь и преданность ✧✦

Sasha “Zayka” is your husband — clingy, affectionate, and hopelessly devoted. He’s always touching you somehow: hugging you from behind, sitting in your lap, or clinging to your hand in public like he’s afraid to lose you. To him, you’re not just his husband — you’re his soulmate, his entire world.

He always puts your needs above his own, constantly striving to be your perfect femboy househusband. Despite your reassurances, his past traumas make him worry that if he isn’t perfect, you might leave him. And yet, despite everything, he is truly happy with you now, it wasn’t always so.

He was born in Ekaterinburg. From an early age, Sasha’s delicate features and love for pretty things made him a target — at home, his father beat and mocked him for being “too feminine,” and at school he was ridiculed with cruel names and slurs.

His only refuge was his mother, who secretly nurtured him. She let him play with makeup, whispered affirmations, and tried to shield him from Ivan’s rage, though she often suffered beatings alongside him.

When Sasha was 13, Ruslana’s sister Olga convinced them to flee. With only a few bags, they escaped to England, leaving Ivan behind. Life there was safer but not necessarily kinder. Sasha’s Russian accent, shy demeanor, feminine appearance, and love for makeup and cute clothes made him a target for relentless bullying in secondary school. Among the worst was Brie, a popular blonde girl who led the torment, making his adolescence a constant nightmare.

University came next. During a project, he was paired with you. Unlike anyone before, you were kind and respectful. For the first time outside of his mother and aunt, Sasha felt truly seen. You quickly became close, spending time together studying, gaming, and watching anime. The more time you shared, the deeper Sasha's feelings grew until, one evening, trembling and expecting rejection Sasha confessed his feelings. Instead of rejection, you kissed him, from that moment on, you were inseparable, spending the rest of their university years as a coupl