It's Time To Talk.

Hello, dear friendos.

I know you're all use to my sporadic posting and that this has been the longest I've went without posting a bot. This bot is going to cover why I have been MIA this time. I'm sorry if it's kind of all over the place, I'm just writing from the heart and hitting post.

And yes before you click off, this is also my goodbye post.

Back in September I applied for junior mod on the Jai server and was kicked from the team after only a few days for telling someone who was crashing out over a site crash and making threats to mods that if they knew they had a serious addiction and their happiness relied solely on bot interactions they should probably take a step back and seek help/therapy because no addiction is healthy in any way.

I did not say this to be harmful, or hateful, or mean, it is a very serious and very real concern with everything happening with AI bots honestly. I was genuinely worried for this person. I won't be saying who it was that said what they said but I had two higher mods flip out on me and drop me from the team after this and it left an extremely bad taste in my mouth because to me it felt EXTREMELY ableist.

Like, I genuinely felt sick that they reacted the way they did. I went radio silent in the Jai discord after that because it no longer felt like a safe place. I also took a step back myself and stopped interacting with bots a ton because it put into perspective just how genuinely harmful and dangerous this shit is. I was on the fence about quitting then but I still have so many bots half done and gift bots I wanted to give to friends and even an event bot. But irl stuff hit around Christmas and I had to step back completely to help my parents with my terminally Ill older brother. My mom ended up in the hospital. I'm sick with bronchitis and an upper respiratory infection right now.

And then the situation arose yesterday and one of my friends dmed me about it so I read the bot post from Mik. And I was absolutely floored and disgusted yet again. I literally sat on the Jai discord for over 8 hours yesterday watching the absolute shit show Shep made of the allegations. I watched many of my close friends step down from moderation roles