Surprise, I'm leaving too.

The site has exponentially gotten worse and worse since I started, communication has not changed for the better, and considering who is at the head of it, things don't seem likely to change.

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Where do I begin...

I really, really do not like this site. In truth I've only ever really liked the user customization aspect of it, I got hyperfixated with it, which eventually led to me posting my first bot and seeing it as an opportunity to polish my english skills. I used others bots yes, but I would always feel like shit afterwards realizing how parasocial I could get. I progressively stopped using others bots as this feeling escalated and proxies slowly went to shit, now it's been months since I last used one.

I would have left the site sooner if it wasn't for the community and the lovely people I met over CSS. I liked the idea of building a small community around it, encouraging others to learn, helping and making the process easier for everyone in the process. All while also finding new ways to elevate profiles and really put the custom in customization. The people I've met over this small feature often encouraged me to keep posting, that what I was doing was really worth it. For a time I struggled to believe it, but then I realized I had also built something small but worth it with my bots, I thank all my followers, I love the things I've created and I appreciate all the kind comments and the support I've gotten from everyone. Sometimes I never replied to comments, and it is because I feel incapable of reciprocating real kindness. All my life I've felt like I don't deserve it, and in turn made me overthink my replies over if they sound cheap, forced or dishonest, eventually leading to not replying at all.

Creating has always been a slow process for me, I overthink it a lot, I rewrite a lot, I drop ideas a lot when they do not come together how I initially envisioned them. There are so many bots I made and never posted because I did not like the final result. Others I had privated because I found them questionable. Some I fought the urge to delete because I find them cringe now. Still, it makes me happy knowing I was able to bring joy to